1984 by George Orwell
Summary (50 words):
The first third of George Orwell’s 1984 introduces us to Winston Smith and his thoughts living in the oppressive government under the rule of Big Brother and the Party. Winston initially holds the ideals of the party; however, throughout the story, Winston comes to realize that something is not right.
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Winston really impressed me when he steps into the prole’s pub to ask the old man about his experiences in the past. He did this although he could get caught by the patrols and sent to the labour camps, or worse, vaporized. This scene reveals that Winston is going through an internal conflict where he feels so trapped within his own thoughts that he will rather risk the quality of his life to seek the truth and connect with another genuine person, rather than to stay isolated in his own mind. Throughout the scene, Winston fears getting caught; he fears that the Party will find out about his actions, thoughts, and intentions. But he still wants to know about the past, he still wants to ask the old man to “tell me (Winston) about your life when you were a boy. What was it like in those days? Were things better than they are now. or were they worse?” (99). But his wants outweigh the risks and Winston “pushed open the door, and a hideous cheesy smell of sour beer hit him in the face” (99). At first glance, this seemingly impulsive and rash decision seems unrealistic. Who would do such a thing in that situation? But Winston has been showing these signs from the beginning of the book. Earlier in the story, Winston says that he “[…] had been stricken immediately by an overwhelming desire to possess it (the diary)” and that’s why he bought the book. This small one-time thing, however, has throughout the story developed into this risky curiosity which leads Winston to talk to the proles and visit the shop – where he found the book – again. I feel like this is a very satisfying development for Winston’s character because his actions and thoughts feel real and unaltered. I feel like these conflicts and conversations he has with himself make him appear to us like a real human. His thoughts feel genuine, like any of us readers could’ve had those thoughts if we were in Winston’s position. In a way, we unconsciously emulate his feelings and can feel empathetic when he has these thoughts but can’t share them. We’ve all had moments where we had a thought or feeling that we couldn’t explain to somebody, nobody could understand, or we just couldn’t share because for different reasons. In that way, we do emulate Winston, sometimes. I, personally, can relate to this feeling. I did something I wasn’t supposed to and felt like I couldn’t tell anyone. However, I did eventually confess and that’s why I believe I would act the same way that Winston did and seek the truth of the past.